{"id":1264,"date":"2017-05-26T16:58:52","date_gmt":"2017-05-26T14:58:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/pr0nandchocolate.net\/shirasade\/?p=1264"},"modified":"2017-05-26T16:58:52","modified_gmt":"2017-05-26T14:58:52","slug":"the-morning-after","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shirasade.net\/fiction\/the-morning-after\/","title":{"rendered":"The Morning After"},"content":{"rendered":"

Author's Note<\/strong>: For archiekinzz' Tumblr prompt #23<\/a>:
\nI love all your jalec drabbles! Can you write a jalec for #23 things you said the morning after<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

\u201cI can\u2019t believe we waited this long!\u201d Jace was stretched out on the bed of one of the Institute\u2019s guest rooms, completely at ease and relaxed in a way Alec realized he hadn\u2019t seen in much too long, possibly ever since Clary Fairchild burst into their lives all those years ago. To Alec, he was the picture of temptation with his sleep-mussed hair and the marks from eager fingers and teeth scattered across his naked body. Alec\u2019s hands clenched into fists to stop himself from reaching out again, and he forced his eyes away, focusing on the piles of carelessly discarded clothes forming a trail from door to bed.<\/p>\n

As much as he ached to touch, however, instead he picked up his briefs and slid them on, giving his parabatai a pointed look. \u201cYou want the list? Because believe me, in the years since I realized that my feelings for you aren\u2019t exactly brotherly, I\u2019ve accumulated quite the long list of reasons why doing anything about them is a spectacularly bad idea.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSo you regret it?\u201d The stricken look crossing Jace\u2019s previously so carefree features almost made him apologize, take back his bitter words, but he steeled himself to once again be the voice of reason in their relationship. Alec would always shoulder the burden of saving Jace, even from himself, even if it killed something inside himself.<\/p>\n

Gathering every last shred of resolve, he replied sharply, \u201cJace, even setting aside the fact that we committed a crime<\/em> in the eyes of the Clave - you remember Clary and Magnus, right? The people we\u2019re fucking married<\/em> to? By being together we broke the two most sacred promises, our wedding vows and our parabatai oath, and I for one don\u2019t intend to dishonor myself more than I already have.\u201d<\/p>\n

His words hit their target unerringly, Jace visibly shrinking in on himself, tears clouding over the striking eyes that had smiled up at Alec only a few minutes ago. Then Jace set his jaw and sat up, visibly pulling himself together, disappearing behind a shell he\u2019d never before needed around his parabatai. Alec hated himself at this moment, both for hurting the man he\u2019d loved for most of this life and because everything he said was the truth.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou\u2019re right of course. I wasn\u2019t thinking,\u201d Jace finally replied flatly, and he mechanically began putting on his clothes, firmly avoiding Alec\u2019s eyes. \u201cI should get going, Clary will be waiting for me.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cJace\u2026\u201d Alec trailed off, desperately wishing for something to say that would wipe away that dead look. Defeat did not suit Jace Herondale.<\/p>\n

Their eyes met, and whatever it was that Jace saw in Alec\u2019s eyes made him soften almost imperceptibly. \u201cIt\u2019s okay, Alec. Last night\u2026\u201d Jace swallowed, his voice trembling before he got it back under control. \u201cLast night after the battle we both needed someone, and we found it in each other. It was a mistake, a beautiful mistake - let\u2019s leave it at that, alright?\u201d<\/p>\n

A beautiful mistake.<\/em> Eyes prickling, Alec managed to reply in a half-choked whisper, \u201cYes, a mistake. But, Jace\u2026 I\u2019m sorry if I made it sound like I was ashamed, because I\u2019m not, although I probably should be.\u201d Cupping Jace\u2019s face in his hands, he pressed one last kiss to the bow of his parabatai\u2019s lips. When he pulled away, they both had tears in their eyes, but Alec\u2019s voice was steady: \u201cI could never regret you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Jace nodded with a bittersweet smile that was only a little frayed around the edges. \u201cFacilis Descensus Averno.\u201d <\/p>\n

Relief washed over Alec as he clasped Jace's hand like they'd done a thousand times before. Already last night was beginning to feel like a dream, a fantasy. He'd had those before, he could live with this one, too.<\/p>\n

Alec had always been good at lying to himself.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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